Hello everyone I was debating to post this but I wasn’t sure to post it. It’s something I have put some serious thought into. I hope you enjoy my writing.
I know it’s Christmas Eve Eve today, I’ve been thinking of something a lot of us have been asked at least once in our lifetimes, if you could change anything about yourself what would it be and why?
I can think of many things to answer off the batt, but as I had some spare time to think and I squally don’t have time to, I had gave some thought to it, and not sure thing I’d change in a heart beat my auditory processing issues.
For those who don’t know as a teen I was diagnosed at age 16 with Asperger’s syndrome at first it was a lot of information to take in at the time. At first I wasn’t open about it as I am now, me being not as social as I am today, when I was told I remember feeling confused at the words, Asperger’s syndrome disorder.
The word, disorder struck me as there should’ve been a sign saying there’s something wrong with you! Detour detour! Go the other way! ( ok I admit I was being a little dramatic) but this was a huge thing for me. As the year pass I began to accept myself and dare I say I’m proud I’m just me if that makes any sense at all.
I learned that I have auditory processing problems and I find it sometimes frustrating at times. To avoid this from happening especially on the job , I’ll ask clarifying questions on what I am asked to do a certain task, cause a lot of the time I’ll misunderstand directions.
For eg one of my bosses or a coworker of mine will ask me, “ hey can you do so and so like fill the fry hopper, or can you change the trash?” I do hear your words but I may hear like part of the directions, something totally different or it may come to me as your mouth is moving and no words come out. I do find this frustrating at times, but I don’t let it bother me especially when I know for sure it’s something important that needs to be done.
Back to the question if I could change something about myself and why?
I need to answer this carefully, I’d say nothing cause despite what I have does frustrate me at times and I have been made fun of in the past, I’d say no I don’t think I’d want to change anything about me. Even at the time I found out i had aspergers as a teen and it took me a while to accept, it’s part of who I am and I don’t care what others think. I am glad I went through trials growing up cause they made me stronger.
As my mom says and I quote,” I am proud of it!”
To anyone out there who has yet to answer this question for yourselves, you may not want to change anything about yourselves. Some may say, really? You don’t have anything you want to change, not one?”
To that I say I have thought that many times so far, but I’ve come to understand even during our trials, sometimes being in the moment you want to run away for eg some event in your life that is unavoidable and you face it sure you can be all sad and be like me me me or you can actually learn from your struggles and grow from it. You may not see it at the time, but you can it’s best to have some form of support like friends and family with you. As I grew up I had that and I wouldn’t change that for a second even though we annoy each other I know we are loved by one another and support one another. And for that I won’t change a thing in my life.